In my dream, he is my teacher, and I have one of those crushes that make you fee stupid because he is so off limits. why would he ever like me?
In my dream, it starts off fine, like normal, we are cuddling together and I am happy, but then it turns out that he is also seeing one of my friends who I think is the sweetest person on the planet, and of course they are more serious than we are. And I have to just sit there and watch them cuddle and kiss and be in love because it's expected of me, because why the hell would I think that he would like me better than her?
In my dream, I am at his house, and girls from his past keep visiting him. He has more in common with these girls and they are much prettier than me. He starts showing them around and I just know that he has decided that he likes them all better, that he is going to let them into his life, while I fumble to get my clothes and get the hell out of there and he just ignores me, or acts like I have no reason to be upset because I should have known.
What is wrong with me? why can't I just have confidence in our connection, without the label? I guess I just want proof that he would choose me. I want proof that he really isn't just using me for sex in the mean time. No matter how much he tells me he likes me, I still always feel like he would push me aside for a better girl, without even considering. And then I feel bad, because I know he's a better guy than that. I just want proof, that's all.
I just want some fucking proof.
