I don't want this to be my life. I want to feel excited to get out of bed and live my life. I don't want to wish I could hide away all the time. I want to be out there.
sometimes I feel like I'm just spinning wheels. over and over and over
and over again I just feel so stuck, going nowhere. my life has become somewhat of a still puddle, stagnant and thick with regret and wanting and an unmet need to feel full. If I take a step forward, I have to take a step back in another direction. my choices cancel each other out, and it seems impossible to escape from this hole I'm in.
you say I don't know what I want, well here's proof otherwise.
I want:
a family. someone who loves me, and I can trust. a job that makes me feel like I'm doing something with my life. friends who care, and who I care about. I want a full life. I want a life that makes others wish they had it, not because of money or because of material things, but because of how it would be filled with real feelings and love and growth. and I want you.
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